songs and poems
The Concept of Loneliness
The concept of loneliness is the epitome of my existence,
Parents ensconced in narcissism while offspring born empathic,
Love and compassion embodied as a recessive gene within the family tree,
The meadow springs to life despite a frolicking pixie not ready to grow up,
But I say goodbye to the little boy inside and embrace the man I have become
The concept of loneliness is non-existent but it is persistent,
Parents not equipped to raise a child with invisible wings,
To have kissed his little face was to kiss the face of God,
Baby boy came to make you anew for you delivered him and he’ll soon deliver you,
But I say goodbye to the little boy inside and embrace the man I have become
The concept of loneliness gives sight to the blind and gives calm to the storm,
Parents never knew their son walked where angels dwell,
Hush, hush, the faint cries of lightning strikes can hardly be heard,
Another storm lies beyond the horizon like children that choose to stay awake,
But I say goodbye to the little boy inside and embrace the man I have become
The concept of loneliness crescendos even while the melody fades away,
Parents break away like a wave on the run but do tell, was it fun?
They couldn’t take me away because hourglass sand never escapes,
Except when glass breaks and time can no longer be told what to do,
But I say goodbye to the little boy inside and embrace the man I have become
Stranger
I believed in the kindness of a stranger,
Even if there was danger,
And a war raging within me
For once I allowed myself to be naive,
For safety was solitude,
So familiar yet so new
Wild was the world
and lonely was a path,
To get to you
Nothing was more attractive
Than becoming more active,
On the front line
What I knew would break me in the end,
As I flew towards it,
It left me for dead
Like a moth trying to possess the flame,
Glistening so vividly,
As it set me aflame
Nothing could bring me back to life,
After you left me to die
On a road so far away
Love and light shined too bright,
They both left me so blind
Before I crashed as I looked away
Spiritual Law
Two sides of the same coin,
can’t even afford tenderloin,
at the restaurant we went to,
but what else is new?
Whispers of the stock market crash,
trust too easily gives backlash,
falling endlessly,
in complacency.
See it from a new perspective,
if only I were more selective,
I could take a chance,
upon the nosedive I dance,
beneath the moonlight we stride,
amongst men of pride,
Break free of this comfort zone,
or else I’ll end up alone.
I’m too scared to leave this room,
Smoking upon a mushroom,
My name is not Alice,
but I still found the chalice,
it says “drink me”
but my anxiety
keeps me from intoxication
In fear of decapitation
I will not beg you to stay,
if you wish to leave,
then go your merry way,
A world of make-believe
Leviathan
Are you here?
Do you see me
As I lay wading in the water?
I heard you could feel as I do.
I heard you’re here all the time.
Can you stay
until the shadows subside?
Please don’t give up on me!
It’s okay if you’re busy, I’m only human…
But you may be the only one who cares
Just enough to rescue me.
Is it so difficult to reach out?
Why won’t you just take me away?
Perhaps it’s not my time to go,
To be pulled up towards the sky, I sway.
Will your kingdom freeze over
If you allow yourself to fall apart as I do?
If you’re lonely up there all by yourself,
Like I have been my whole life,
Maybe I can save you too?
How can you be so powerful?
Why won’t you let the emptiness cave in?
Your mind is made up.
Your love, a complete mystery, it has been.
Or do you cry with me
As I try to end something that’s not yet finished?
Skipping pages,
skimmed but not yet read?
Paper cuts but not yet red...
Speechless
There were so many people
some were fun
some were evil
everyone got in the way
till you came
by one day
the last time that I saw you
we did coke
in my car
I never thought we’d get far
stumblin’
out of the bar
You took the time to know me
you were sad
I was lonely
I had judged you so quickly
enabled
you slowly
I’m sorry I forgive you
just come back
I miss you
my life is so empty
meaningless
without you
tell me how low you can go
please show me
I must know
love hides behind words unsaid
is that why
you’re speechless?
Party in the Clouds
The party in the clouds floats over a viridescent canopy,
whisking me away on a rather lavishing odyssey,
Every time I inhale from anxious beginning to beguiling end,
Playing near the flat line where the fork will bend,
No matter how much blood I shed with broken windows,
I can’t get you out of my veins from which the white girl blows
The flames off all the candles planted in the cake
While matches ignite plants until everyone is baked
No matter how many I dance with too closely on the dancefloor,
I can’t get rid of the pain while I breathe in the clouds once more.
I lost my present when I lost you.
So it’s redundant to say to you
No matter how high the music gets loud
I lost myself in this party in the clouds.
The Little Kitty
now it’s time to feed
The Little Kitty
she is so hungry
but i don’t notice
through the iridescence
stumblin’ over the pressure
unsure…
of what needs to be done
all i do is stay trapped
in my mind with you
tell me that you’ll stay the same
so that i don’t have to change too
in a world of make believe
in a world of sanctity
we are one and the same
it’s true…
now it’s time to see
The Little Kitty
dehydrated
but i don’t notice
through the concupiscence
fallin’ over the lesson
listen…
tell me what needs to be done
all i do is stay trapped
in my mind with you
tell me that you’ll stay the same
so that I don’t have to change too
in a world of make believe
in a world of sanctity
we are one and the same
it’s true…
Poor Little Kitty
don’t know what to expect lately
maybe…
i know what needs to be done
all i did was stay trapped
in my mind with you
i don’t care if you stay the same
but I need to change too
The Apocalypse Game
I never considered it futile
To carry the weight of your pain
A gift conceived by angels
Dark blessings offered in vain
I thought there was something to gain
In never leaving your side
And getting drenched in the rain
You must have felt so much pride
Humans taught me how to be
But they didn’t quite succeed
And so I encompass your light
I’ll forever inhabit the divine
Lines
The blinds are making lines on the walls
Their scent got me bouncing off the walls
Take the keys from the bowl and sniff it up
Steal all the credit cards and line it up
Breathe in through your nose like when the monk said it
Don’t breathe out through your mouth or you’ll choke on it
We havin’ a lil fun with all the white girl
Only men in the room but no white girl
She got me higher than all the broken windows
Just heat the white sand to fix all the windows
Installed the blinds that hides between the lines
He layin’ on his back moaning are his only lines
I put him in my mouth eyes closed as I go south
There’s a lot of snow there while I’m skiing south
The blinds are making lines on the walls
Their scent got me bouncing off the walls
Loneliness Isn't Real 