Let’s be negative!

Hello to my negative fallen angels! I’m gonna talk some real shit today because I genuinely don’t give a fuck and I need to vent. I can’t see my therapist this week because of stupid ass Thanksgiving. This is the time of the month my food stamps are gone and people make plans with me and then ditch me at the last minute. So when people ask me what I’m doing for Thanksgiving, I say starving and contemplating suicide. Lol. I hate the holiday season! More like Suicide Season! I’m the fucking love child of Mr. Scrooge and the Grinch. There’s always those dumbass Christmas specials on TV and annoying children getting spoiled and becoming worse and worse every year. I can’t do yoga or meditation as well as my empathic rituals barefooted at my local park because now it’s too cold outside. My ex-fiance’s birthday is in December too. And my crush keeps hanging me on a hook. I hate this shit! Ungrateful people smiling and laughing in each other’s company as if they give a fuck about each other. I have no faith nor expectations in other people anymore so when someone fails to comply, I am not disappointed. Loneliness is the realest thing there is and I must be content with the darkness that is mankind. My boss is fake too! Warmline ain’t shit! No one’s calling and she’s a condescending bitch! It’s a fake job led by a fake person. I bet she was one of those blonde cheerleaders who gossip and pour pig’s blood on dark beauty queens. The kind of girl in high school whose boyfriend I fucked last night. I’m trying to get a real job but I guess no one is really hiring. Lol. My brother is getting back with his bitch ass fiance so I’m not talking to him anytime soon. I hope the world ends soon though. It sucked when mankind continued to live past 2012. I mention 2012 a lot but seriously, I was SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED THAT THE END OF THE WORLD NEVER HAPPENED! Humans don’t deserve to live. Whatever. I gotta wait it out, I guess. I have been working out three times a week but I’m still curvy as fuck. I really enjoyed doing drag last Wednesday though. I have pictures and wrote a draft for my post about my alter-drag ego, Seductress. However, the video for ComiQueens is still in the works of being edited. So once I gather pics and vids, I will post it immediately. And my church family is pretty cool. So maybe there are a few reasons to continue tolerating living amongst human beings as an alien attempting but failing to take over the world time and time again. No one in my life bothers reading my blog, but even if they did… oh wells! The infamous One-Eyed Angel resumes his existence in pursuit of a fabled salvation. Wish me luck and I will wish you luck too – as if that matters at all. Have a wonderful day! Over and out.

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My baby girl!

Hello to my unconditional fallen angels! So I didn’t understand what it was like to love an animal til I got a cat myself. Animals are so beautiful. They love us unconditionally and they stay in that baby phase forever. I usually don’t cry but if something happened to Silly, I would break that tear-free streak.

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There are a lot of things I keep putting off but my excuse is always that I’m young. However, anyone can die at any time. I think we tell ourselves that life is short as a way to alleivate the burden of being alive. I’m saying this because a good friend of mine recently had to put down their dog. Suddenly his thoughts snowballed to all the things in his life he put off to do at a later time. It may be cliche to say that life is short or that we should live everyday like its our last. We should… but we don’t. We naturally assume there will be a tomorrow or even a tonight. But nothing is guaranteed

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But back to the point, I find it much easier to love my cat than it is to love another person. People are often untrustworthy, guarded, broken, and unreliable. Animals are different. They love unconditionally like I said before. It breaks my heart when I hear animals getting abused for that same reason. They still love their masters. Beautiful creatures submitted to live in the care of human beings. I love my baby girl. She had four babies of her own and had her little drama with the fellas. If Silly was human, she’d be a full-fledged woman!

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Look how elegant and adorable she is! Whenever I’m feeling low, she automatically sits on my lap and lets me hold her and pet her until I feel well enough to carry on with my day. Sometimes I wish she was human, but I fear that unconditional altruism will fade in the process. The average life expectancy for cats are around 10-15 years at the latest, I believe. Silly is almost three already. I always try to remember that most likely, I’m going to outlive her. I try to be okay with that and tell myself that nothing lasts forever, especially life itself. But who can be okay with that completely without choking up inside?

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Like a wise man once said, “always remember to get your pets spayed or neutered.” 😉
Have a wonderful day! Over and out.

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