Are you here? Do you see me As I lay wading in the water? I heard you could feel as I do. I heard you’re here all the time. Can you stay until the shadows subside? Please don’t give up on me! It’s okay if you’re busy, I’m only human… But you may be the only one who cares Just enough to rescue me.
Is it so difficult to reach out? Why won’t you just take me away? Perhaps it’s not my time to go, To be pulled up towards the sky, I sway.
Will your kingdom freeze over If you allow yourself to fall apart as I do? If you’re lonely up there all by yourself, Like I have been my whole life, Maybe I can save you too?
How can you be so powerful? Why won’t you let the emptiness cave in? Your mind is made up. Your love, a complete mystery, it has been.
Or do you cry with me As I try to end something that’s not yet finished? Skipping pages, skimmed but not yet read? Paper cuts but not yet red...
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There were so many people some were fun some were evil everyone got in the way till you came by one day the last time that I saw you we did coke in my car I never thought we’d get far stumblin’ out of the bar You took the time to know me you were sad I was lonely I had judged you so quickly enabled you slowly I’m sorry I forgive you just come back I miss you my life is so empty meaningless without you tell me how low you can go please show me I must know love hides behind words unsaid is that why you’re speechless?
Did I successfully slash his second tire did I assert a deep tone of voice when I yelled at him did I break his phone beyond repair did I impede on his daily schedule did he stay up all night thinking about me too did he wonder what he did wrong does he regret what he did does he understand the reasoning behind my retaliation does he still want to be with me did we have a chance at true love does He hate me now do I hate him should I have killed him should I have pressed charges should I go back to his house for revenge should I invoke a false sense of security claiming to seek forgiveness before I take his life from him did I do the best I could to do the right thing did he shed tears for me would he take me back can I get away with murder am I the hero of this tale am I the villain being molded by this origin story did I make him fear for his life did I enjoy seeing the shock emanating from his pale-face did I do this because I was drunk and high would I have done this if I was sober do I drink too much am I an alcoholic am I a drug addict am I a sex addict do I enjoy making him cry does he enjoy watching me in pain was this a lesson I needed to learn did I fuck up something that could have salvaged me did I overreact did I under-react should I reach out to him should I leave him alone can we move past this can we talk about it am I past the point of no return??????????????????
Poetry and Prose by #1 Amazon Bestselling Author of Nature Speaks of Love and Sorrow, Co-Author of #1 Amazon Bestseller, Wounds I Healed: The Poetry of Strong Women, and Jan/Feb 2022 Spillwords Press Author of the Month