LABYRINTHINE

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I step forth with my church shoes off.
The threshold’s edge is just within my reach.
A deep breath in until my core is fully inflated.
Holding it in as I envision the negativity yearning to escape.
I exhale to allow myself to feel.
One step –
Two steps –
Ten steps –
I begin to notice other people walking in the distance.
They don’t look up at me but I refuse to take it personally.
Eleven steps –
Twelve steps –
Twenty steps –
There are some sections of the ground that creak loudly.
I guess the whole way can’t be silent and smooth.
I accept that there may be creakier areas ahead.
Twenty-one steps –
Twenty-two steps –
Thirty steps –
I realize I can’t rush ahead without taking a break every so often.
I must look up from my feet and embrace the beauty that surrounds me.
Thirty-one steps –
Thirty-two steps –
Forty steps –
I bump into several people along the way.
Either, I move aside for them or they do so for me. I’ve done both by now.
Forty-one steps –
Forty-two steps –
Fifty steps –
I can’t help the others find their way nor they can’t aid me on this task.
I learn that we all have our crosses to bare.
It may seem lonely it doesn’t have to be.
… Ninety-eight steps –
Ninety-nine steps –
One-hundred!
Alas!
The center of the labyrinth is beneath my calm toes.
Centering is key and patience is it’s chariot.
My heart staggers as I swallow my pride for the journey backwards.
Sometimes people leave me halfway through the wood.
But I can’t let their absence grieve me.
No one leaves for good.
The only way to move forward is to trek to the beginning once more.
There are always details I tend to overlook…

 

 

 

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Faithful Forevermore

Hello to my faithful fallen angels! Let’s climb aboard for another one of The One-Eyed Angel’s check-ins, shall we? There were a select group of friends I would text every single morning. I felt like I was doing all the work after a while. So I stopped texting them first to see if they would reach out to me and I ultimately lost touch with them.

Honestly I think I’m losing touch with my brother too. He seems apathetic since he broke up with his ex-fiance. He had a kid with her but it doesn’t seem like he cares. So I try not take it personally. But I was on the receiving end of a lover’s apathy. Hence it’s nearly impossible to not empathize with his ex-fiance and the daughter he left behind. He’s a good brother and a good person to me, but he’s not inclined to maintain a family dynamic. I get it though. I think I would have done the same thing, to be honest. She was far from perfect herself. It can go either way when it concerns me.

It just sucks how hurt people tend to hurt people. Most people want to unload their burden onto someone else. Just because I have my shit together, people assume I’m always okay. But I’m human too. Not many of my friends are people I could confide in if I need support. They’re always busy or they’re in the company of someone more important. I think people are naturally selfish honestly. It takes strength and compassion to care about someone other than yourself.

Aside from my psychological perplexity, my vessel is in need of repair. I have been taking pain killers every single day for years due to chronic neck and back problems. The diplopia isn’t quite a pleasant experience either. I hope there’s a solution to my physical anomalies. As of this point in my life, every problem has been solved or in the process of being solved. So my faith resides forevermore in God.

But I get a bit cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs when I skip meditation and other spiritual practices. A visit to the spirit realm always cures my crazies. If I stop laughing, I’d be crying. So I laugh, pop pain killers, and practice abstinence to stay alive. Ode to joy!

Hope always find its way in. I have obtained a friendship with a neighbor I honestly didn’t think I would establish any kind of relationship with. My brother shows me that he still has a heart from time to time. I have known one of my best friends for several years now and she’s someone who actually has an aptitude to acknowledge how and why I am the way I am. Yet no matter how much I divulge myself to you all, I will forever remain a mystery. On that beautiful note, I wish you all a wonderful day! Over and out.

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Watch “Empath Daily Meditation” on YouTube

Start your day right. For anyone who wakes up in the morning with racing thoughts and worries like I do, I recommend that you meditate to this audio recording. If it can work for me, it can work for you too. Have a wonderful day, my fallen angels! Over and out.

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The absence of electricity

Good morning to my unique fallen angels! How are you doing today? Anyway, from 7:50-9:15am, electricity was gone in my entire town. It made me realize just how much I depend on technology and electricity. Apart from waking up drenched in my own sweat due to the AC powered off, the emergency lights in the hallways were on so I was a bit disheveled. Even my phone had very limited service during that allotted time. Good thing I have a 4G LTE Android phone. So it wasn’t completely rendered unavailable during the absence of electricity. This minor inconvenience wasn’t the epitome of my morning. Thank God! My immediate reaction was to call the emergency services for my apartment and then head outside to the park literally in my backyard. I took off my sandals and stood in the tranquility and the silence of the park’s early morning ambience. I grounded, centered, and shielded myself. Then I meditated. And finally I did some yoga for a while until my landlord called me back to announce that power was restored! I believe this experience was one of God’s tests to see if I could withdraw from tech dependency. And I can. My mind resorts to other things such as empathic exercises, meditation, yoga, reading, writing… and so much more. Electricity is a very delicate and finite energy that’s man-made and therefore can be man-unmade. It’s dangerous to rely too heavily on something that someone else controls. Like a rebellious teenager not knowing how lucky they are until they’re kicked out of the nest. As people, we trash talk about services or gossip on social media. But as an empath, I can say with confidence that I am a simple man and quite old-fashioned for someone in my age bracket. Yeah my friends are like “why the hell do you still have a GameCube?” Or “you still handwrite letters to people?!” Yes. I still do. I’m not ashamed of sticking to my humble roots. Because what if our society becomes entirely reliant on wifi and the Tech Age and then that luxury is suddenly taken away. You must always have something to fall back on. So as our world succumbs to tech dependency and the newer generations learn only of touch screens and voice-activated devices, I only hope that the simple times won’t be confined to history textbooks. It’s funny how my mind totally wandered since the absence of electricity and how my thoughts snowballed until I had the urge to write this post. I love myself lol. So I wish you all a wonderful day! Over and out.

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