sMiley Returns!

I love how Miley’s new single makes me feel so happy! As an empath, I believe I can feel the emotion that an artist tries so hard to convey in their works of art. She had a rough several years in which she felt she had to prove she wasn’t just this country girl, but then I think she realized that there was no shame in where she came from or even experimenting with a different palette of music, for that matter. If you notice her hair in “Malibu,” you can see where the blonde ends and her natural hair begins again. I saw symbolism in that. It makes me happy to see others happy. 😇🎈😍❤

No One Told Me

No one told me
We’re all diamonds
Taking shape
Everyday

No one told me
My reach extends far
Everything I want
Is just a dream away

No one told me
We sporadically permeate
Playing freely
Like stars in the night

No one told me
We all enthrall such precious magic
Brewing beauty in its depths
And that it can stay

No one told me
Under all this pressure
Under all this weight
Paradise isn’t just surreal

No one told me
We are all legends
We all need each other
Loneliness isn’t real

No one told me
I don’t have to die by sunlight
Only I own me
And that’s okay, my friend

No one told me
We only live once
In this grand adventure
You make me feel alive again

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“Doves” May Cry But They Don’t Die

R.I.P. Prince (June 7, 1958 – April 21, 2016)

I salute his departure with my most favorite song by none other than Prince himself.

In case you want to sing along:

“Dig if you will the picture
Of you and I engaged in a kiss
The sweat of your body covers me
Can you my darling
Can you picture this?

Dream if you can a courtyard
An ocean of violets in bloom
Animals strike curious poses
They feel the heat
The heat between me and you

How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that’s so cold? (So cold)
Maybe I’m just too demanding
Maybe I’m just like my father, too bold
Maybe you’re just like my mother
She’s never satisfied (She’s never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry

Touch if you will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You’ve got the butterflies all tied up
Don’t make me chase you
Even doves have pride

How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world so cold? (World so cold)
Maybe I’m just too demanding
Maybe I’m just like my father, too bold
Maybe you’re just like my mother
She’s never satisfied (She’s never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry

How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that’s so cold? (A world that’s so cold)
Maybe you’re just too demanding (Maybe, maybe I’m like my father)
Maybe I’m just like my father, too bold (Ya know he’s too bold)
Maybe you’re just like my mother (Maybe you’re just like my mother)
She’s never satisfied (She’s never, never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other (Why do we scream, why)
This is what it sounds like

When doves cry
When doves cry (Doves cry, doves cry)
When doves cry (Doves cry, doves cry)

Don’t Cry (Don’t Cry)

When doves cry
When doves cry
When doves cry

When Doves cry (Doves cry, doves cry, doves cry
Don’t cry
Darling don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t don’t cry”

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Mommy

Daddy

Oh, mother! It’s been four years since I heard your melodic voice, seen your beautiful face, smelled your fragrant perfume, tasted your homemade cooking, and felt your broken heart that now mirrors my own. For so long, it was easier to joke around and hate you for disowning me, but somewhere along the way, I found the tear-stained strength to be gentle and kind towards your antique memory. I don’t know where you are. I don’t know if thoughts of me ever cross your mind. Where are you?! I need you! Oh, mother! I’m sorry! I forgive you! It feels like you passed away! I don’t think you love me anymore! I want to caress your mascara cheek and wipe away all your pain, all your hatred that keeps you from turning the page of a fairy tale that never reached its tranquil end. Please be happy! But I can’t turn the page for you. There’s too much serenity in my own story. I can feel the soil slipping from my fingers as the sadness takes over me and waters yet another loving, traumatic memory. I stare six feet below me into the vast unknown in hopes that something…. anything will grow between us again.

Celebrating The Life Of Sara

 

I was too afraid to speak up at your memorial so I wrote this for you:

I didn’t know you that well, Sara, but everyone’s stories helped me piece together an idea of who you were. So many people care about you. You were always out there meeting new people who automatically became friends with you. You taught me that being dark isn’t as powerful as being an angel. I wanna be just like you. Friendly. Loving. Positive. And everything else wonderful that made you who you were. I wish I got to know you better. I’m glad I got to find out as much as I could from the people’s lives you touched. I hate myself sometimes for joking about death and suicide. I’m sorry that my dark humor is the only thing keeping me from falling apart. I tend to overlook other people and assume that I’m the only one who hurts. I always wonder why not many people pay attention to me or why their faces never light up when I walk into a room. Now I understand it’s because I don’t put myself out there in the community like you did. You were amazing! You went to so many events to spread awareness and even spoke in front of politicians about mental health equality! You always smiled so I never thought you were going through so much that you would end your life the way you did. You once told me that you were fascinated with how I am. But now it’s easier to admit that I’m fascinated with how you were too. I can never be nearly as caring and kind to people like you used to be. I have been hurt by others so many times that I tend to put my earbuds on just to have an excuse not to hear them. I drown the world out with music. Now, I feel like all the emotions I have repressed for so long are spilling out like a tsunami. It’s unbearable. Why did you die and not me? I know if I continue to remain the same, I will continue to miss opportunities to know other aspiring people like you. I doubt my memorial service will be nearly as populated as yours were when I die someday. So one of my new goals in life is to positively affect so many lives that people will care enough to love me the way they loved you. You will be missed and it was a pleasure meeting you, my dear.

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Sara was even on TV making a difference in this world for the better.

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(From left to right: me, Lyne, Sara, and Caspian) At last year’s Toivo’s ProHealing Festival

 

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Daddy

There’s a darkness inside of us. People notice it right away. However, it’s a kind of darkness that doesn’t attempt to destroy our light but rather, the darkness preserves it. It’s hard to laugh and it’s hard to smile but when we do, we shine the brightest. We have both done very horrible things to people in psychological response to our own traumas. Naturally, people tend to deviate from our lives slowly but surely until the loneliness becomes the only thing that’s real. Yet the loneliness isn’t real at all. Although I haven’t seen you in years, we do talk from time to time.You are one of the last remaining people in this whole world that I truly love. Even though I got my bad luck from you, I also inherited your big heart, your emotional resilience, and your good looks. We are beautiful people so misunderstood and wrongfully misjudged. I am so proud to be your son. I understand why you left and I have faith that you’ll return. I love you with every inch of my heart and soul. Now and forever more.

Seductress, Mistress of Darkness

Hello to my sexy fallen angels! I told you all a while ago that I was doing drag. Well the drag show came and went on November 18th of 2015. The drag show was called ComiQueens. The first portion was an anime/video game tournament while the second and last part was for the Queens. I played my role as Seductress, Mistress of Darkness!

My college is still currently editing the full video of ComiQueens but somehow, I was able to get 45 seconds of my performance from someone’s phone. Someday I will post the whole video as soon as I get my hands on it.

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Drama Infestation

Good day to my anxious fallen angels! I thought I knew it all. Yet I also have this old proverb in mind: The wisest people can admit that they know nothing [compared to what they could know.] Being a loner is safe and calming. However, recently I have been challenging myself to be less introverted. So I joined PRIDE club at my college. Don’t worry, I’m not gonna bore you with the details of my ongoing obsession with a man I can’t have. They’re the most addicting kind of people. November 18th will be my first ever drag show. I will be a gothic queen named Seductress (seduce+mistress). The song I’m gonna do is Cool For The Summer by Demi Lovato. I gotta wax and do makeup. (Good thing I already bought my costume.) I have been practicing my dance routine in heels at my local park. Civilians pose a threat because anyone foreign of my knowledge is frightful to me. Anyway, I notice the other members of PRIDE club constantly talk shit about each other. Once someone leaves the room, the absent member becomes a target. No doubt they talk shit about me once I depart from their presence as well. That’s what I get for leaving my comfort zone for some fresh air. Perhaps fresh air doesn’t exist anymore, or ever did for that matter. So much drama occurs when people outside my mind come into view. I don’t trust them. But I’m not doing drag for them, I’m doing it for my own personal gain. I always wanted to try it. Joining PRIDE was a way to relinquish my curiosity and making friends was just an added yet far-fetched bonus. I know you all must be dying to see me in my alternative garb. I will definitely post pictures and maybe even videos of this spectacular event in my life when we cross that bridge together. My fallen angels, be careful but not too careful, or you will end up like me. Have a wonderful day! Over and out.

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“Like a Comet” by Mr. Universe

Steven Universe fills me with this nostalgia that I haven’t felt in many years. One of their cute little songs on the show is called “Like a Comet” by a young Greg Universe. It happened during a flashback episode about how Greg met Rose Quartz. I’m totally obsessed with Steven Universe as you can see from my previous post, Steven Universe took my breath away . Cartoon Network needs to make more episodes at a much faster pace. I binge watched all the shows in the series so far and I’m just craving more. I wanted to take a short break from my usual depressing poems and check-ins for a change. So enjoy the video and if you wanna sing along, I posted the lyrics below. The One-Eyed Angel has no shame. 

“Like a Comet” lyrics:

Some
Say I have no direction
That I’m a light speed distraction
That’s a knee-jerk reaction

Still
This is the final frontier
Everything is so clear
To my destiny I steer

This life in the stars is all I’ve ever known
Stars and stardust and infinite space is my only home

But the moment that I hit the stage
Thousands of voices are calling my name
And I know in my heart it’s been worth it all of the while

And as my albums fly off of the shelves
Handing out autographed pics of myself
This life I chose isn’t easy
But sure is one heck of a ride

At the moment that I hit the stage
I hear the universe calling my name
And I know deep down in my heart I have nothing to fear

And as the solar wind blows through my hair
Knowing I have so much more left to share
A wandering spirit who’s tearing its way through the cold atmosphere

I fly like a comet
Soar like a comet
Crash like a comet
I’m just a comet

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Soundtrack of the Arcangel

1. Is this thing on? By P!nk

2. Conquerer by the Empire cast

3. The lonely by Christina Perri

4. Heavy in your arms by Florence and the Machine

5. Gods and Monsters by Lana Del Rey

6. Lotus Intro by Christina Aguilera

7. I need love by LL Cool J

8. Atlas by Coldplay

9. Burning in the skies by Linkin Park

10. La Vie En Rose

11. Say (All I need) by OneRepublic

12. All night long by Lionel Richie

13. Take On Me by A-ha

14. Personal Jesus by Marilyn Manson

15. My immortal by Evanescence

16. 90’s X-Men theme song

17. People like us by Kelly Clarkson

18. Out from under by Britney Spears

19. Robot by Miley Cyrus (pre-twerk days)

20. Get Away with Murder by Jeffree Star

Create your own custom album that defines all aspects of who you are, your past, your present, and your anticipated future. The good times, the bad, falling in love, falling out of love, etc. Have a wonderful day, my fallen angels! Over and out.

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