Truth Serum
When I was 6,
I wished I was a newborn,
When all I worried about was eating, sleeping,
And excreting waste,
When I was 10,
I wished I was 6,
When all I was afraid of was going to grade school for the first time
And missing my mom until I returned home,
When I was 14,
I wished I was 10,
When all I thought about were the terrifying times I spent alone with my stepdad
And missing my mom until she returned home,
When I was 18,
I wished I was 14,
When all I reminisced about was how I secretly enjoyed being abused like a masochist
And missing the only sexual escapade I had throughout my school years,
When I was 21,
I wished I was 18,
When I was forced to be exiled because my mom thought my dad’s replacement made me gay
And hoping there was more to life than this,
When I am 30,
I will wish I was 21,
When all I can recall will be how my ex-fiance severely broke my heart
And how he wonderfully psychologically tormented me,
When I am 39,
I will wish I was 30,
When I’ll realize that I am the same age as when my first love left in peace
And left me in pieces,
When I am 50,
I will wish I was 39,
When I can remember fondly how agile and resilient I once was
And wondering how I didn’t kill myself a lot sooner
When I am 69,
I will not look back anymore,
For dementia will consume my mind’s occupancy leaving behind the fact that my age will be one of my favorite sexual positions
And in total relief that I will die any day now
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